I would like to wish a wonderful Happy 23rd Birthday day to ME! Yep, today is my birthday. Unfortunately, the majority of it will be spent working, and that really sucks. The only good thing about that, is I am paid hourly, so the longer I work, the more money I will make. Money is always good.
I don't really have any plans for the evening. I guess I will be seeing April at some point, and maybe go to dinner, but I'm not really in the mood for much. I gotta work most of the day, and to top it off, it is pouring rain outside.
Anyway, Hopefully I will find some joy in this day, and will make it through unscathed. For now, it's back to the grind stone.
Wednesday, March 28, 2007
Monday, March 12, 2007
No Tears in Heaven
NO TEARS IN HEAVEN
written by Robert S. Arnold
No tears in heaven, no sorrows given.
All will be glory in that land;
There'll be no sadness, all will be gladness,
When we shall join that happy band.
No tears (in heaven fair).
No tears, no tears up there,
Sorrow and pain will all have flown;
No tears (in heaven fair).
No tears, no tears up there;
No tears in heaven will be known.
Glory is waiting, waiting up yonder,
Where we shall spend an endless day;
With Christ our Savior, we'll be forever,
Where sorrow no more can dismay.
No tears (in heaven fair).
No tears, no tears up there,
Sorrow and pain will all have flown;
No tears (in heaven fair).
No tears, no tears up there;
No tears in heaven will be known.
written by Robert S. Arnold
No tears in heaven, no sorrows given.
All will be glory in that land;
There'll be no sadness, all will be gladness,
When we shall join that happy band.
No tears (in heaven fair).
No tears, no tears up there,
Sorrow and pain will all have flown;
No tears (in heaven fair).
No tears, no tears up there;
No tears in heaven will be known.
Glory is waiting, waiting up yonder,
Where we shall spend an endless day;
With Christ our Savior, we'll be forever,
Where sorrow no more can dismay.
No tears (in heaven fair).
No tears, no tears up there,
Sorrow and pain will all have flown;
No tears (in heaven fair).
No tears, no tears up there;
No tears in heaven will be known.
Thursday, March 08, 2007
Music
Music speaks what cannot be expressed,
soothes the mind and gives it rest,
heals the heart and makes it whole,
flows from heaven to the soul.
soothes the mind and gives it rest,
heals the heart and makes it whole,
flows from heaven to the soul.
Thursday, March 01, 2007
Wow, long time no post.
It has been a long time since I have posted anything on this blog, and I thought I would post a brief update, so my few readers don't think I have completely vanished from the earth.
I have been quite busy with work, with completing a restaurant review archive, and preparing for a new CMS that we will be implementing in the coming months. Very exciting stuff, but it is also very tiring.
On the flip side, my personal life has been somewhat of a roller coaster as of late. I have been very tired, both physically and mentally, and have been struggling with a lot of different issues. I can't really get into details.
I feel like I have been in the middle of a storm, and have yet to find a way out.
I only hope I see the light soon.
More later.
I have been quite busy with work, with completing a restaurant review archive, and preparing for a new CMS that we will be implementing in the coming months. Very exciting stuff, but it is also very tiring.
On the flip side, my personal life has been somewhat of a roller coaster as of late. I have been very tired, both physically and mentally, and have been struggling with a lot of different issues. I can't really get into details.
I feel like I have been in the middle of a storm, and have yet to find a way out.
I only hope I see the light soon.
More later.
Friday, February 09, 2007
Peace In The Eye Of The Storm
Peace In The Eye Of The Storm
by: Jill Lemming
Let us find peace in an angry world
Let us walk proud, united as one
Lord, we are strong, not by ourselves
With our country in turmoil and bound in sin
We leave our future in Your loving Hands
by: Jill Lemming
Let us find peace in an angry world
let us strive harder each day
to live as your people, humble and good
without violence and vengeance, we pray.
Let us walk proud, united as one
determined to live by our faith
trusting Your guidance in all that we do
thankful for the gift of Your Grace.
Lord, we are strong, not by ourselves
but with Your Spirit abiding within
every moment of every day
we surrender to You once again.
With our country in turmoil and bound in sin
we plead for a change still to come
Lord, give us leaders who rely on You
to direct what this world will become.
We leave our future in Your loving Hands
in the midst of a World that is torn
whatever we face, we know You are there
to bring peace in the eye of the storm.
Sunday, February 04, 2007
Colts win Super Bowl XLI
Despite a sloppy game in rain soaked Miami, the Indianapolis Colts have won Super Bowl XLI.
Congratulations to the Colts, the city of Indianapolis, and the state of Indiana on this win.
More commentary to come later......
Congratulations to the Colts, the city of Indianapolis, and the state of Indiana on this win.
More commentary to come later......
Friday, February 02, 2007
Saying Goodbye
Saying goodbye to someone dear to you is never easy, no matter what the circumstances. When someone dies, suddenly or expected, there is a period of grief that family and friends go through. Sadly enough, I am no exception.
There's no easy way to say it, so I'll just get to the point. My 89 yr old great grandmother died.
Granny's long struggle finally ended around 6:30 pm on Thursday, January 18, 2007. Thank God she is no longer suffering, and she is in a better place.
There was a memorial service held in Louisville this past weekend, and of course I went down there. I must say that over all, everything went ok. I haven't been doing very well with any of it, and actually collapsed in the middle of the memorial service. There was also a major misunderstanding, that could have ended very badly. Some things were said about me, and when the conversation was relayed back to me, the message was garbled, and with my emotions as fragile as they were, I lost it, and was ready to hurt the parties involved. Thankfully for everyone, the situation ended peacefully.
I came back to Fort Wayne on Tuesday, and went back to work on Wednesday. This is super bowl week, so work has been extra crazy for me. Will be glad when it is all over.
Mentally, I'm still reeling from my grandmothers death, and will be for quite some time. I'm trying to deal as best as I can, and April is being real understanding about everything, but it's still very difficult for me. I can't do anything with out thinking about Granny, and all of the bullshit that has gone on the last few months. As I said before, I am thankful she is no longer suffering, and is in a better place.
My prayer is that god will comfort us all, and guide us as we deal with this loss, and move on with our lives. God help us all.
There's no easy way to say it, so I'll just get to the point. My 89 yr old great grandmother died.
Granny's long struggle finally ended around 6:30 pm on Thursday, January 18, 2007. Thank God she is no longer suffering, and she is in a better place.
There was a memorial service held in Louisville this past weekend, and of course I went down there. I must say that over all, everything went ok. I haven't been doing very well with any of it, and actually collapsed in the middle of the memorial service. There was also a major misunderstanding, that could have ended very badly. Some things were said about me, and when the conversation was relayed back to me, the message was garbled, and with my emotions as fragile as they were, I lost it, and was ready to hurt the parties involved. Thankfully for everyone, the situation ended peacefully.
I came back to Fort Wayne on Tuesday, and went back to work on Wednesday. This is super bowl week, so work has been extra crazy for me. Will be glad when it is all over.
Mentally, I'm still reeling from my grandmothers death, and will be for quite some time. I'm trying to deal as best as I can, and April is being real understanding about everything, but it's still very difficult for me. I can't do anything with out thinking about Granny, and all of the bullshit that has gone on the last few months. As I said before, I am thankful she is no longer suffering, and is in a better place.
My prayer is that god will comfort us all, and guide us as we deal with this loss, and move on with our lives. God help us all.
Wednesday, January 17, 2007
Hanging in there
"I'm hangin in, there ain't no doubt, and I'm hangin tough, over and out." - George Carlin.
Just wanted to post a brief message to let me few readers know I'm still around. There's alot of things going on right now, and I'm having trouble dealing with all of it. As the quote says, I'm hangin in there, and I'm trying to stay tough through it all.
My grandmother is still with us, but it's only a matter of time before she is gone. The last couple of weeks have been bad. One day she's near dead, and the next day she has rebounded a bit. It's back and forth, and for everyone's sake, I wish it would just end. She's ready to die, and I wish she would. Sounds bad, but it's true. She wouldn't be hurting anymore, and I wouldn't be worrying myself sick anymore. God, just get it over with already.
On a positive note, I have finally managed to complete the restaurant review database project I have been struggling with for work. Put the finishing touches on it this morning, and everyone seems happy with it. We'll see what the coming weeks bring in terms of feedback on that. I'm sure there will be changed that I have to make, but for now, I'm done.
Anyway, I've been up since 3:00 am, and I'm dead tired. Time to go sleep. Ciao!
Just wanted to post a brief message to let me few readers know I'm still around. There's alot of things going on right now, and I'm having trouble dealing with all of it. As the quote says, I'm hangin in there, and I'm trying to stay tough through it all.
My grandmother is still with us, but it's only a matter of time before she is gone. The last couple of weeks have been bad. One day she's near dead, and the next day she has rebounded a bit. It's back and forth, and for everyone's sake, I wish it would just end. She's ready to die, and I wish she would. Sounds bad, but it's true. She wouldn't be hurting anymore, and I wouldn't be worrying myself sick anymore. God, just get it over with already.
On a positive note, I have finally managed to complete the restaurant review database project I have been struggling with for work. Put the finishing touches on it this morning, and everyone seems happy with it. We'll see what the coming weeks bring in terms of feedback on that. I'm sure there will be changed that I have to make, but for now, I'm done.
Anyway, I've been up since 3:00 am, and I'm dead tired. Time to go sleep. Ciao!
Wednesday, January 10, 2007
General George Patton Talks About Iraq War
If Patton were in charge of this war, it would have ended 4 years ago. He may have been politically incorrect, but by god Patton knew what he was doing.
Monday, January 01, 2007
Back in Fort Wayne
Just wanted to let my few readers know that I am back in Fort Wayne now. I got back late last night; just in time to go to bed so I could get up and come to work at 4:30am this morning.
My grandmother is still with us, but that is subject to change at any time. I must say I have never seen her look as bad as she does now, and I really don't expect her to be around much longer. I am honestly hoping, for her sake and everyone elses, that she will pass fairly soon. She is suffering, and is quite miserable. She has no quality of life being bed-ridden now, and unable to do much more than lay there.
I was in Louisville from Thursday afternoon until Sunday afternoon, and the whole time I was there I kept wishing that it would just end while I was down there. I hate the idea of having to return to Fort Wayne, only to be called back to Louisville a few days or so later.
I made the decision to return to Fort Wayne, based on the fact that there really isn't anything that I can do down there, other than sit and wait for her to die. Since I have work, and other obligations here in Fort Wayne, I felt it best that I just come back up here and get on with things until I have to return to Louisville for the funeral.
Despite knowing that there was nothing I could do there, and that my grandmother wouldn't want me to sit there worrying, it was very difficult for me to leave. I was in tears when I got to the car, and I must also say that it takes a lot to make me cry. I know in my heart, that yesterday afternoon was the last time that I will ever see her alive. I can't begin to describe how much it hurts me to know that.
So, it's a painful waiting game now. Just a matter of time before she is gone, and I receive that phone call. I am not looking forward to it, but I am expecting it and am prepared to deal with it when it comes.
Please keep all of us in prayer as we trudge through the rough days ahead.
My grandmother is still with us, but that is subject to change at any time. I must say I have never seen her look as bad as she does now, and I really don't expect her to be around much longer. I am honestly hoping, for her sake and everyone elses, that she will pass fairly soon. She is suffering, and is quite miserable. She has no quality of life being bed-ridden now, and unable to do much more than lay there.
I was in Louisville from Thursday afternoon until Sunday afternoon, and the whole time I was there I kept wishing that it would just end while I was down there. I hate the idea of having to return to Fort Wayne, only to be called back to Louisville a few days or so later.
I made the decision to return to Fort Wayne, based on the fact that there really isn't anything that I can do down there, other than sit and wait for her to die. Since I have work, and other obligations here in Fort Wayne, I felt it best that I just come back up here and get on with things until I have to return to Louisville for the funeral.
Despite knowing that there was nothing I could do there, and that my grandmother wouldn't want me to sit there worrying, it was very difficult for me to leave. I was in tears when I got to the car, and I must also say that it takes a lot to make me cry. I know in my heart, that yesterday afternoon was the last time that I will ever see her alive. I can't begin to describe how much it hurts me to know that.
So, it's a painful waiting game now. Just a matter of time before she is gone, and I receive that phone call. I am not looking forward to it, but I am expecting it and am prepared to deal with it when it comes.
Please keep all of us in prayer as we trudge through the rough days ahead.
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