Wednesday, January 17, 2007

Hanging in there

"I'm hangin in, there ain't no doubt, and I'm hangin tough, over and out." - George Carlin.

Just wanted to post a brief message to let me few readers know I'm still around. There's alot of things going on right now, and I'm having trouble dealing with all of it. As the quote says, I'm hangin in there, and I'm trying to stay tough through it all.

My grandmother is still with us, but it's only a matter of time before she is gone. The last couple of weeks have been bad. One day she's near dead, and the next day she has rebounded a bit. It's back and forth, and for everyone's sake, I wish it would just end. She's ready to die, and I wish she would. Sounds bad, but it's true. She wouldn't be hurting anymore, and I wouldn't be worrying myself sick anymore. God, just get it over with already.

On a positive note, I have finally managed to complete the restaurant review database project I have been struggling with for work. Put the finishing touches on it this morning, and everyone seems happy with it. We'll see what the coming weeks bring in terms of feedback on that. I'm sure there will be changed that I have to make, but for now, I'm done.

Anyway, I've been up since 3:00 am, and I'm dead tired. Time to go sleep. Ciao!

Wednesday, January 10, 2007

General George Patton Talks About Iraq War

If Patton were in charge of this war, it would have ended 4 years ago. He may have been politically incorrect, but by god Patton knew what he was doing.

Monday, January 01, 2007

Back in Fort Wayne

Just wanted to let my few readers know that I am back in Fort Wayne now. I got back late last night; just in time to go to bed so I could get up and come to work at 4:30am this morning.

My grandmother is still with us, but that is subject to change at any time. I must say I have never seen her look as bad as she does now, and I really don't expect her to be around much longer. I am honestly hoping, for her sake and everyone elses, that she will pass fairly soon. She is suffering, and is quite miserable. She has no quality of life being bed-ridden now, and unable to do much more than lay there.

I was in Louisville from Thursday afternoon until Sunday afternoon, and the whole time I was there I kept wishing that it would just end while I was down there. I hate the idea of having to return to Fort Wayne, only to be called back to Louisville a few days or so later.

I made the decision to return to Fort Wayne, based on the fact that there really isn't anything that I can do down there, other than sit and wait for her to die. Since I have work, and other obligations here in Fort Wayne, I felt it best that I just come back up here and get on with things until I have to return to Louisville for the funeral.

Despite knowing that there was nothing I could do there, and that my grandmother wouldn't want me to sit there worrying, it was very difficult for me to leave. I was in tears when I got to the car, and I must also say that it takes a lot to make me cry. I know in my heart, that yesterday afternoon was the last time that I will ever see her alive. I can't begin to describe how much it hurts me to know that.

So, it's a painful waiting game now. Just a matter of time before she is gone, and I receive that phone call. I am not looking forward to it, but I am expecting it and am prepared to deal with it when it comes.

Please keep all of us in prayer as we trudge through the rough days ahead.