Saying Goodbye

Saying goodbye to someone dear to you is never easy, no matter what the circumstances. When someone dies, suddenly or expected, there is a period of grief that family and friends go through. Sadly enough, I am no exception.

There's no easy way to say it, so I'll just get to the point. My 89 yr old great grandmother died.
Granny's long struggle finally ended around 6:30 pm on Thursday, January 18, 2007. Thank God she is no longer suffering, and she is in a better place.

There was a memorial service held in Louisville this past weekend, and of course I went down there. I must say that over all, everything went ok. I haven't been doing very well with any of it, and actually collapsed in the middle of the memorial service. There was also a major misunderstanding, that could have ended very badly. Some things were said about me, and when the conversation was relayed back to me, the message was garbled, and with my emotions as fragile as they were, I lost it, and was ready to hurt the parties involved. Thankfully for everyone, the situation ended peacefully.

I came back to Fort Wayne on Tuesday, and went back to work on Wednesday. This is super bowl week, so work has been extra crazy for me. Will be glad when it is all over.

Mentally, I'm still reeling from my grandmothers death, and will be for quite some time. I'm trying to deal as best as I can, and April is being real understanding about everything, but it's still very difficult for me. I can't do anything with out thinking about Granny, and all of the bullshit that has gone on the last few months. As I said before, I am thankful she is no longer suffering, and is in a better place.

My prayer is that god will comfort us all, and guide us as we deal with this loss, and move on with our lives. God help us all.