If it's not one thing..........

It's 5,000,000.

There's a lot going on in my world right now, and most of it really doesn't have anything to do with me. It amazes me just how often I fin myself drawn into the middle of other people's bullshit problems. I don't know, maybe I just care to much. But I some how manage to get pulled into all this stuff, and I wish everyone would just leave me the hell alone.

First, my stupid ass neighbors are just that, Fuckin Stupid. Well, one of them is anyway. There are a couple of guys here that tend to be on the loud side, blasting their stereos, etc.... at all hours of the day and night. I really don't have a problem with that, as long as they don't bother me. I have mastered the art of ignoring people. ha ha. Well, there is this new chick that moved in a month or so ago, and she is constantly bitching and complaining about the 2 guys noise.

This bitch complains about them from the time she gets up, until the time she goes to bed. She has even called me, and was ranting and raving on my telephone about how bad these people were. Personally, I think she's fuckin nutz. Things are not as bad as she is making it all out to be. Yes, there is some noise, but it is not an all day, every day thing like she claims. And on a saturday, you can expect people to be in and out, and for there to be some noise. This girl just won't quit.

She had the nerve to try and talk my into complaining about the noise, just so something would be done. And, to top that, she had the nerve to ask if I would write a statement for some lawyer she is gonna hire, to get the owners to let her out of her lease. Hell no! I am not gonna be pulled into the middle of a law suit. Fuck that shit man! I'm not about to be put in a position that will lead to my having to move. I like my apartment too well for that. Besides, I don't have that much of a problem with the guys or the owners. Nothing but bullshit! I'm sick of it all.


There is also a lot going on with my family right now. I will be going to Kentucky this weekend to see if I can help get some matters resolved. I was originally going down there for a party and some vacation time, but now I'm going to play guidance counselor. Damn it!

Everyone, Leave Me Alone!

St. Joseph River Greenway

April and I spent some time wondering along the St. Joseph River Greenway. I had the digital camera with me, and took a lot of pictures. I put them in this gallery. Please send comments. Enjoy.


St. Joseph River Greenway Gallery

Awesome Sky Pics

April and I were on the way home from the library the other night, and noticed a rainbow in the sky. So I decided to stop at lakeside park and take some pictures.
The sky looked like it was on fire. It was really cool. You can't see the rainbow very well in the first pic, but if you look closely at the second pic, you can see it.

Close one door, open another.

Isn't it funny, how God closes one door, and opens another for us a moment later?

I am talking about the current situation that I'm in with my employment status. I quit one job, and a few days later, got a call from another company offering me a really great job. I thought about it for a bit, and decided to take the job.

It dawned on me that what I had heard and believed all my life was true. God never closes one door without having another one ready to open. Pretty cool, huh?

Let Go, Let God, and Be Blessed!

Self Respect

There has been a lot going on in my life as of late, and a lot of it has not been good. There is so much, I have become overwhelmed by it all. It is as if I have been in a downward spiral; a free fall that tumbling down and down until finally crashing hard upon the ground.

The job that I had turned out to be a bad fit for me, and I came to that realization after some things took place that made me really begin to question myself and my abilities. So, I decided that I would quit. Yes, that's right, I quit.

I did what? You read it right, I Quit! I know what you are thinking right now. The writer of the "You Must Not Quit!" blog, has quit something. You must be thinking I'm quite the hypocrit right now. Well, I thought so too. I have felt like shit the last week, knowing that I walked away from one of the best opportunities that I have had as of late. I've beaten myself up over it, over and over. The situation has taken control of my mind. I lost my ability to think clearly, and ultimately lost control of myself.

Last night, as I was talking with April, I came to a revelation. It's all about Self Respect! I had seemingly lost my self respect, because I quit something. I'm not a quitter. I never give up without one hell of a fight. So, that lead to my feeling so bad. Well, for years I have been going on and on about how I don't take shit from anyone, and that no one is going to walk on me, and treat me like a piece of shit. It suddenly dawned on me, that I had what it took to stand up to that guy, and put an end to the repressive behavior that he was pushing on me. It's not that I just quit the job. I had enough respect for myself to stand up, and put an end to the way I was being treated.

I had allowed all of those feelings of self doubt to fill me, and take hold of my mind. Then while talking to April, I was reminded of that little thing called Self Respect. I had been feeling guilty, and that I was wrong for quitting the job. Thanks to April, I have been able to get those thoughts out. It's not wrong for a man to have enough respect for himself to stand up to those who are attacking him. The true test of character, is the reaction that we put forth when faced with difficult situations. My character has been tested, and I have passed the test.

I have not wasted my time or money gaining my college degree. I am not stupid, nor am I any less of a human being that any other person. I am not weak, nor am I a quitter. If I am none of these, what am I?

I am a strong, confident, caring, loving, and passionate man. I have a sound mind, and a strong spirit. I am well educated; possessing the knowledge and abilities needed to make it in this world. I am strong willed; filled with a sense of determination and endurance that will carry me through all situations. I am filled with respect, not only for others, but more importantly, for myself.

Infrequency

I'm sure, by now, the few readers that look at this thing have been noticing the infrequency of my postings as of late. I got to thinking about the word Infrequency, and thought I'd share an actual dictionary definition with you.

From the American Heritage Dictionary -

in·fre·quent (n-frkwnt)
adj.
1. Not occurring regularly; occasional or rare: an infrequent guest.
2. Situated or placed at rather wide intervals, as in time or space: infrequent oases in the desert.

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in·frequence, in·frequen·cy n.
in·frequent·ly adv.

The American Heritage® Dictionary of the English Language, Fourth Edition copyright ©2000


Now, I'm sure you are thinking that this is just a bullshit post; thinking that this is an attempt to post something, without posting anything at all. And, you would be right. Lots of stuff going on with me right now, but I can't really bring myself to write about much of it. Well, not in a public forum anyway.

I'm alive, and that's all anyone really needs to know.

An Old Soul

You Are an Old Soul

You are an experienced soul who appreciates tradition. Mellow and wise, you like to be with others but also to be alone. Down to earth, you are sensible and impatient. A creature of habit, it takes you a while to warm up to new people. You hate injustice, and you're very protective of family and friends A bit demanding, you expect proper behavior from others. Extremely independent you don't mind living or being alone. But when you find love, you tend to want marriage right away. Souls you are most compatible with: Warrior Soul and Visionary Soul

What Kind of Soul Are You?

I'm still alive

Holy hell it's been a long time since I posted anything on this blog. So much has been going on, I hardly know where to begin. There have been new developments where work is concerned. More on that once I've figured out how to explain.

I'm not exactly sure how to explain a lot of the stuff that has been going on lately. I find that troubling, because I'm not one to ever suffer from a loss of words. I guess my mind is just so consumed by everything that I'm not able to process it all as I would like.

Anyway, I'm alive. Among the living, and trying to get by.

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I'm still here

Yeah, I know it's been a while since I updated this thing. I'm still here though, just have a lot of stuff taking up my time these days.

Work is going pretty well. I love my job; I can do all of it right here in the comfort of my home. It is so awesome to be able to set my own schedule, work when I want, and get paid nicely for it all. I work as a web developer for a place called Management Recruiters of Allen County - South West. It's a small, but growing company, and there is the potential for me being employed there for quite awhile. Here's to hoping anyway. I'm currently working on a website for a new division that we are adding to the company, and should have it operational early next week. I'm looking forward to seeing the finished result, as are the people for whom I work.

So, I went to Louisville this past weekend, to see the family, celebrate the 4th of July, and to go through a bunch of my old stuff down there, to decide what to bring back with me. Well, I got to see the family, and did go through things, and we did celebrate the 4th, but none of it went as planned.
About a month ago, I asked my mother to get my stuff together and move it down to the garage so it would be out of the house, and accessible so I could work with it. She kept saying she'd do it, and it would be done before I got there. Well, that didn't happen. I ended up having to get it all together, drag it all out of the house, and go through all of it, by myself. No help at all. In 95 degree temperatures too. Needless to say I was not a happy camper, and told my mother and the sorry sack of shit that she calls a boyfriend what I thought of them. Didn't go over well, but I wasn't happy so they didn't need to be either.

Mom was also supposed to take the grill to my grandmothers for the cookout on the 4th, and that didn't happen either. She decided that she would wait until I got there, and have me help her move it. I asked why in the hell couldn't that good for nothing boyfriend of hers help move it. Why wait for me? So the grill never got moved, and it sat in their side yard and got soaked when it stormed down there on the 4th. So.....not only did the cookout get fucked because of the grill, it was fucked because of the rain. And, there was no plan B either. So, there we were, scrambling to get food prepared on the stove at the last minute. Ugh...it was a complete and total disaster.

I guess the only good part of the weekend was getting to see my aunt and uncle, and getting my suits cleaned at the dry cleaners where mom works. Those are the only two things that went as planned. Needless to say, I was all too happy to get in my car and drive back up here to Fort Wayne on Wednesday. Now I'm back, have seen April, and am back to working.

Gotta go to the office in a while, so I better go get things ready. Ciao!