On the road again!

I will be on the road again this morning, as I am going to Louisville to see my great grandmother before she dies. Her health has been rapidly declining, and I have been expecting to have to go down there for a while now. I decided last night that I would be driving down there today.
I am hoping that she will hold on until after the new year, but it's honestly just a matter of time before it happens.

I will be gone until Saturday or Sunday. It may be longer depending on what happens.
I will post updates as I can. God be with me as I travel, and God be with the family as we cope with this difficult situation.

A few thoughts

Perhaps someone reading my last post might have gotten the impression that I'm just hateful, evil, etc... because of my feelings towards the holidays this year. Well, I'd like to make a few things clear.

First of all, I really don't hate the holidays. I like Thanksgiving, Christmas, etc... I like the time I can spend with my family and friends this time of the year. I like some of the decorations, and some of the gift giving is ok too. Although, I do believe the gift giving and money spending is over rated.

My negative feelings towards the holidays stem from the loss of my uncle, who died 4 years ago. My uncle was a big part of my life, and he was part of what made the holidays so wonderful. He was just like a big ol' kid, especially at Christmas. He was just as excited as the kids were. Since his death, my attitude towards the holidays has deminished a lot. The holidays are not the same. There is a large void, and nothing seems to fill it.

I try to deal with it, for everyone elses sake, but I could do without all of it.

Just thought I would share those thoughts. Good night.

I must be sick

I have good reason to believe that I am either currently sick, or am on the verge of getting that way. Care to know why I say that?

Well, I actually put a Christmas tree up in my living room last night. I must be sick, or something.

As far as the holiday is concerned, I don't really give a hoot in hell about it this year. I'm just not in the mood for all of the bullshit that goes along with it. There's a lot going on in my life, and with my family, and my mind is consumed by it all. I've been in a lot of pain, physically and mentally, and just don't feel like bothering with any of this festive holiday shit.

I have completed my Christmas shopping for the few people I really have give something, and will be sending Christmas cards to everyone else, but that is as far as my holiday cheerfulness goes.

Bah, humbug!

Family Matters

When faced with the imminent death of a loved one, one comes to realize just how much that person means to them, and to the family as a whole. As the effects of the coming events begin to spread through out the family, and you see how it tears people apart, you come to realize just how much family matters. I am now faced with such a situation; awaiting the coming death of my grandmother.

My mind is racing, as I'm trying to process what is happening, and prepare myself for the unpleasantness that will follow her passing. I am struggling with all of this, and am unsure just how I'm going to deal with everyone else. I'm finding that my mind is not on target; I'm constantly thinking about things in louisville, when I should be focused on working here in fort wayne.

I will be writing more as I have it in words, but for now, I can say no more.

It's fricken cold!

Slideshow - First Snow

First Snow

One clear sign that Christmas is right around the corner, is the first snow fall of the season. Well, Christmas must be on it's way, because Fort Wayne saw it's first snow accumulation overnight.

I awoke early this morning, and upon glancing out the window, found that about an inch of that cold white stuff blanketed everything. While it is pretty and all, I'm really not ready to deal with that stuff yet. Now, I'm not going to complain about it, because it will do no good. I will say, though, it's nasty and cold.

More later.

An out stretched hand

Ah geez, it's always something

Yesterday was a bad day all the way around. I didn't feel well when I woke up, and really didn't want to go to work. I went anyway, and when I went to leave work, the shit really hit the fan.

When I went to start the car, it began shaking and rattling, annd made some funny noises. Well, I pulled out of the parking lot, and noticed the service engine light had started flashing. So, I slowly made my way back to my place, and parked it. Now, I'm thinking the problem is due to a lack of oil, and the need for a tune up. But I can't be sure. So I have made an appointment for Thursday morning to have the car serviced.

The servicing of the car is going to cost quite a bit; an astounding $468.85, parts and labor. Man, we're talking serious highway robbery. I'm not looking forward to writing the check for the car, but it's gotta be done.

So, for the time, I am without a car. April was kind enough to bring me to work this morning, and will be picking me up when my shift is over. Thank you hun.

On top of this bullshit, the weatherman is talking snow for the weekend. I have to get this car fixed, so I can go buy a new cost.

Ah geez, it's always something.

Another day, another dollar. I guess.

I'm sitting here in the office, having just finished the daily chore of putting all of the daily news content on the website. Now that I have completed that task, I have been hit with a big wave of exhaustion. My eyes are not wanting to stay open, and that's not a good thing. It's a little warm in here, so it is making sleep even more appealing. I wish the window in front of my desk actually opened. A nice, cool, blast of air would help about now.

Not sure what I'll be doing when I leave work. May actually go home and take a much needed nap. Should work on some personal projects, but don't know if I feel like it. We'll see what happens.

Hope everyone reading this has a wonderful day. Back to work now. Ciao!